Unlike previous years, I have nothing to show from Nexus this time (even though the project has advanced in the past year more than in any of the years before). But I have a lot to say about this life-long commitment. This year I almost struggled to miss the “deadline” of coming up with some content for the 1st of May birthday of Nexus. This year may very well be the ONLY year when I will write ONLY about what this project means to me. I’m fairly confident that when Nexus reaches its round-number 5th birthday, we’ll be very public and, from then until the end, it’ll be one long string of continuous reveals & adventures.
Back in 2018, after just two weeks with Nexus in my head, I knew this is going to be a lasting project (a life-long project to be precise). What was and still is a mystery is where it will lead. It has now been three years since the first direct plork (play-work) happened for Nexus.
I expected this creation to reach some level of maturity by now. And it has. But… not the way I thought. I am both quite far from the original idea, and yet very close to an earlier release. I also didn’t expect to witness the gracefulness through which things arrange around Nexus. It’s all about patience and trusting in the transformative power of this creative journey.
As always, the dream begins with currents of mist in shades of blue, swirling and twisting in all directions. There is no floor, nothing for equilibrium to anchor to. A huge, disembodied face appears from it. Gray eyes stare at her. After a while, its white lips move, and it speaks in a deep, gender-less voice: “Why are you here?”.
She wants to answer, but like countless times before, she’s little more than a spectator inside her dream-body. Thinking, feeling, but unable to act. Even so, her yearning to find something here moves the dream in the right direction. Soon, her dream-body answers: “I am looking for something”.
One year ago, a seed of the Nexus hit something in me. The Nexus is a place that exists outside time, but when fertilizing my intellect, it has bound itself to this Now. A figment of my imagination as I am a figment of its Existence, the Nexus has been steadily growing in my mind ever since, seeking the ideal way to express itself so that others can begin discovering it.
I have absolutely no doubt that Nexus will be a successful project, product, creative endeavor and investment. Every quark of every atom in my body screams this in complete ecstasy for what is to come.